PTSD: My Results vs. the Department of Defense and the reasons why I have been successful.

Monday, October 29th, 2018 13:07
Before I go into the rest of this experience, the move to 612 NE 15th ST. #3, Fort Lauderdale, FL I’m going to describe my PTSD and PTSD in General, the past and current recommended protocols and the failing of the military to effectively treat veterans with PTSD.

After my car accident and before the gang rape I was a total mess. I could not function, I self medicated with alcohol, meth, and sleeping pills. But after my mother’s visit I was given a number to call by the very first therapist I saw in Miami. It was a handbook to walk you through evaluating your own levels of distress at the current time. I cannot remember the name of the handbook, but it was written by a doctor from the Walter Reid memorial VA Hospital in Baltimore, MD. When I received it and began answering the question I was completely devastated at the results of this self evaluation. I could not get through each page without some intense catharsis. I knew I needed help, but had no idea about how to get it or where. At the time, PTSD was considered primarily and anxiety disorder. For me that is very true. For others, depression may be the primary symptom and others a mixture of the two.

I learned the Cognitive Behavioral Psychoanalytic Therapy was the number one most successful treatment. I’m into my 12th year of PTSD mainly because along the way I tailored my own specific regimen BASED ON RESULTS. I continue to improve at the same time, life never slows up throwing me curve balls to hurdle. It’s one step forward, two steps ALL OF THE TIME, yet I still persevere. I am determined to survive. It may never go away, but I am better equipped today to handle the bumps in the road, the setbacks and I can get back on track more quickly, however I’m always in a state of treading water.

From the NIH

From the US Department of Veterans Affairs: The National Center for PTSD

From the US Department of Veterans Affairs: The National Center for PTSD Treatment Protocols

If you read the pharmacological treatments for PTSD from the above link, you’ll notice these are all anti-depressant medications. Anti-depressant medications do very little or nothing at all to address anxiety. Earlier I mentioned I tailored my treatment BASED ON RESULTS.

These are the current treatment results for the military, taken
Jan 29, 2018 - From 1999-2010, the suicide rate in the US population among males was 19.4 per 100,000, compared to 4.9 per 100,000 in females. Based on the most recent data available, in fiscal year 2009, the suicide rate among male Veteran VA users was 38.3 per 100,000, compared to 12.8 per 100,000 in females.

I have watched this particular we bite for the last 10’s a moving target. The information changes all the time, bu the results are Military personnel with PTSD are basically doomed.

I say this for two reasons. One is stigma...big strong men don’t want to appear weak, especially with a mental health issue, among their friends and family. Given that Psychoanalytic is the best course for treatment of PTSD, most who suffer stop right there. Many more skip it altogether and take the normal protocol of antidepressants.

In 2012 alone, an estimated 6,500 former military personnel died by suicide. More active duty veterans, 177, succumbed to suicide that year than were killed in combat, 176. The Army suffered 52% of the suicides from all branches.

BASED ON THOSE RESULTS...military personnel are not getting the treatment they need short term and long term. Every single case is different. Mine is not combat related, but is does not have to be.

My current regimen is Clonazepam ½ to 1 2mg tablet up to three times a day as needed. I never run out of medication. I strive not to take it but when I need it, it’s there and it keeps my keel even, most of the time.

I have problems with people moving around the back of me. In restaurants I usually sit against the wall or where I can see the front door. I have a hard time in places like Walmart Super Centers. I get overwhelmed, can’t remember what I’m looking for and end up leaving in a slight panic. Until last summer, I could hardly bear to be touched by people, for example, bumping into people in the supermarket or at a bar or any place out side the home. I’m much better with that now, thanks to my commitment to therapy with a competent psychologist. The worst trigger for me is the act of being suddenly surprised. Depending on the circumstance, I frequently have full blown panic attack, where I usually go to my room curl into the fetal position and cover my head, trembling and shaking, crying and doing whatever I can to get through it. Until recently I never knew why I would sometimes pass out in one of these episodes. I would lock up so much that I was not breathing enough. Now the first thing I do is tell myself to "BREATHE" until I get to a point where I am so exhausted I fall asleep. Usually upon waking up, the attack passes with very little residual effect.

Now that I am here in Kissimmee, it may be difficult to get Clonazepam from my general practitioner. Very often they refer you to a psychiatrist who typically prescribe what the VA recommends. I know from experience I could see three different psychiatrists in one day and receive three different solutions, none of which are what works best for me.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to hold a job, especially after what the FLPD put me through.

Which brings me to all of the information I’ve gathered to explain this phenomenon of people who refer to themselves as Targeted Individuals. Not only am I being gang stalked by law enforcement, but I am also a Targeted Individual. This is the how I have come to learn what happened to me, saw the evidence for myself and suffer from terrifying lucid dreams. It’s possible to say I have had over a thousand lucid dreams. Many time I am consciously aware of the dream and the people talking to me, we actually have a conversation while the dream plays itself out according to the content of the conversation.

It is a complicate and controversial subject, but this story would make no sense other wise. Ever single thing I state on this web site is from my own personal eye witness account.

Page 3...Targeted Individuals and the Cost to Society for Ignoring the Issue. Hopefully tomorrow or Wednesday I'll have it posted.